Blog - Depressed and Annoyed

Well, it looks like someone may have hacked into my Hotmail account - oddly enough all they did was set up a 'vacation auto-reply' that sent spam. I don't see anything else different. I changed my email password (naturally) so hopefully the damage is minimized.

Of course not so for my iPod, which was stolen out of my wheelchair backpack when I was shopping on Sunday. Yeah - some jerkface actually stole my iPod right out of my backpack. I was with Heather and I was in my chair (of course) and have a generic black backpack I hang off the back, and my iPod was in one of those special 'iPod' pockets, zipped in. One of the stores was pretty crowded, and someone must have just quickly unzipped the pocket and slipped away with my pink iPod nano. I know it was partially PMS but I actually cried when I found it was gone. I mean, seriously, who steels from a chick in a wheelchair? Seriously...

It doesn't help that I think I'm starting to feel that seasonal depression thing - I just don't want to do anything but sit at my computer and play shockwave games and look for crip porn. And I'm not doing particularly well at either of those, even. Heather's the same way, though - we're both just in a seasonal slump of sorts, I guess. No serious relationship issues, we're both just kinda 'blah', you know?

I'm 3/4 done with the latest New Arrangement story but I just can't see where it's going from here, it's getting repetitive I think. I guess I set it up that way - I mean, how much variety can you put into a lesbian BD/SM relationship where the 'Top' is a complete quadriplegic who can only experience sexual fulfillment by having her hair pulled? I've made it interesting, but I still think it's repetitive.

Money is tight right now too - neither of us can work any overtime, that's been cut at both our companies, and there's no holiday bonuses either, so I'm stressing about what to get for Heather and she's stressing about what to do for me, I'm sure. I know it's cliche, but even two kinky bizarre fetish-loving lesbians can get in the dumps over the supposed 'Most wonderful time of the year'.

So that's it, I'm sure nobody really cares about my depressed rambling, everyone is just waiting on new stories. I was doing great there for a while, too. I'll try to get back on the horse this week. Maybe I just need to get laid? I'll bring that idea up with Heather...

I'm not dead

Yes I realize I've been quiet for a couple weeks, I'm OK, I have my reasons. I'm still working on stories it's just slow going. I might try a flash fiction session soon.